Darkness

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” even the darkness is not dark to You;
the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with You.

Psalm 139:11-12

I recognize it would be easy for someone to stumble upon our blog and think, “Wow, they have been through so much…what incredible perseverance and faith.”  In fact, we’ve been told that several times in the last year.  And while true, that God has grown our faith and caused us to persevere, it by no means indicates that we never have really low moments.  Yes, God has kept us and we continue to trust Him and have faith.  And yes, we still hit major valleys and moments of despair.

This was one such week.  I had been so sure that this week we would finally receive some good news about our boys’ cases.  Its been over a month since our last court date, and all we’ve heard is a deafening silence.  On Sunday, I was once again renewed to pray boldly and expect God to move on behalf of our boys.  Now it is Thursday and nothing.  Sometimes it really does feel as though God doesn’t hear me or that He’s simply indifferent to our situation.  Of course, I know this isn’t true because of His Word, but boy do I have to fight to believe it during weeks like these.  This particular trial is doubly hard because it doesn’t just involve me…there are two very adorable, beautiful, precious children who continue to wait without a mommy or a daddy.  Two little boys who aren’t being taught what it means to be a man after God’s own heart.  Two little boys who aren’t regularly hearing the good news of Christ.  Two little boys who don’t receive oodles of gifts on their birthdays…in fact, their birthday actually goes by unnoticed and un-celebrated by those around them.  Yes, its a particularly hard trial, most certainly the hardest I’ve ever faced.

Please keep praying for us…unless you’ve adopted, you really can’t imagine the agony of watching children that you plan to love and parent grow up for months without you.  Please pray that our all-merciful, all-powerful, God of the fatherless would indeed show His mercy and power by allowing our cases to pass very soon.  Pray that we will press on in a manner worthy of Christ.  May we see the light of Christ and not dwell in darkness.

Some really good news…

Not for us, but for a dear friend that I have made along our adoption journey.  She has certainly been a great source of encouragement and a shoulder to cry on through some really tough times (she too had a sweet baby pass away before bringing her home).  I’m so thrilled that today the Lord has added to her family an adorable new daughter!  Go here to read their story and see precious pictures of this sweet little one!

Molly Kate’s 2nd Birthday

An hour-by-hour glance of Molly Kate’s big day  yesterday…poor girl wasn’t feeling too well, so we had a lot of ups and downs throughout the day.  But in the end, she had a blast celebrating with some of her closest friends, and of course, cake never hurts!  And, typical of my song-loving daughter…we sang “Happy Birthday” twice!  Once just wasn’t enough!!

8:00 AM - Starting the day out right with a balloon and coffee!
8:00 AM - Starting the day out right with a balloon and coffee!
8:30 AM - Chocolate Chip Pancakes with Blueberries
8:30 AM - Chocolate Chip Pancakes with Blueberries
The pancakes are a hit!
The pancakes are a hit!
9:00 AM - Present time!
9:00 AM - Present time!
10:30 AM - A trip to the zoo (carousel ride included!)
10:30 AM - A trip to the zoo (carousel ride included!)
4:30 PM - "Please touch, Mama"...just a sample!
4:30 PM - "Please touch, Mama"...just a sample!
The infamous "Pink Monkey" cake!
The infamous "Pink Monkey" cake!
6:30 PM - Gotta have one family pic!
6:30 PM - Gotta have one family pic!
6:55 PM - Our dear neighborhood friends Cole and Casey were first to arrive!
6:55 PM - Our dear neighborhood friends Cole and Casey were first to arrive!
7:00 PM - Party time...chatting with Asher over cake!
7:00 PM - Party time...chatting with Asher over cake!
7:30 PM - Done with cake, time to play!
7:30 PM - Done with cake, time to play!
7:45 PM - So much fun with all her friends!
7:45 PM - So much fun with all her friends!

Greek Wraps

While great for a light summer meal, these wraps are surprisingly filling!  I received this recipe from a great friend, tried it last year and wasn’t crazy about it, then tried it again last night with some minor improvisions and loved it!  Here’s the link to the recipe: Greek Beef Wraps

My changes are to use 2 1/2 tablespoons of Greek seasoning in the meat mixture and only 1/2 teaspoon of dill weed in the sauce.  The first time I made these, I used entirely too much dill weed, which has a pretty strong flavor!  We only used plain flour tortillas (I searched for the spinach flatbread to no avail!) and they were a huge hit!

To Our Boys…

I simply love this…

Kisses in the Wind (The Waiting Child’s Lullabye)
 
I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that’s how it seems.
 
I know you wonder where we are…what’s taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.
 
Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin…
Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.
 
May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I’m doing all that I can do.
 
Very soon, you’ll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.
 
May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.

Six Months and Counting…

Its hard to believe that we officially accepted the referrals of each of our boys six months ago today.  I never would have imagined on January 18th that six months would pass and we would still be no closer to these little men being a part of our family!  But, I also could have never imagined the incredible ways God would purify my heart and strengthen my faith through such an arduous wait and thus, I put my hand over my mouth.

I also thank God for a beautiful day today…we have had an amazing cool front come through (have I ever worn long-sleeves and jeans in July?!?!) so Kevin and I decided to take advantage of the awesome weather.  We took Molly Kate and the dogs (we are dog-sitting my sister’s lab, which happens to be Annie’s sister) to a park on the river front for a picnic.  What a delight to enjoy a playground, the river and a yummy lunch!  After lunch, we headed across the river to a neat little candy store, Schimpf’s Confectionery.  Kevin was happy to see that all fountain drinks were fifty percent off, so our sweet stop actually ended up being pretty cheap!  I love Saturdays with my family…precious mercies of God!

Daddy's Girl
Daddy's Girl

 

My sweetheart!
My sweetheart!

 

Waving at the boat
Waving at the boat

 

The best part of the day!
The best part of the day!