I’m struggling to find the words to explain how great and mighty and loving and good and kind God has shown Himself to me since we received the news of our trip being pushed back. It began that very day when God graciously met me in my affliction and disappointment and helped me realign my thoughts with His Word and His promises to me. As hard as it was to accept that we would not meet our son for another 2 1/2 weeks, by His Spirit I was able to dwell on His promise that He is still working out all of this for my good and His glory instead of my unmet expectations. He also quickly intervened as my heart and mind began to worry about the financial aspects of changing our flights. He reminded me that He knows everything I need (Matthew 6) and I focused on that promise instead of letting worry get the best of me (especially when I got the total bill to change our flights!). Since then, God has provided above and beyond for our needs. He provided that our friends schedules still be open to care for Molly Kate while we are gone, He provided my sister a way to keep watching our 6-year old chocolate lab until we return, and He provided every penny that we needed to pay for our airline fee changes. Today we learned that W’s paperwork is complete and he has been filed for court…another sweet blessing as we have waited upon the Lord to complete his case.
Best of all, I saw the goodness and kindness of the Lord ever so clearly in an e-mail from a close friend I have made through the adoption process. She lives about four hours from here and yesterday, she met the two brothers they are adopting for the first time. These brothers happen to be good friends with our Mikias and she and I were so bummed to not be able to travel together to pick up all of the boys at one time. But read these words she sent to me yesterday:
Today was an amazing day!!!!! They actually brought down Mikias to the office when bringing our boys so he was able to be with us during the coffee/popcorn ceremony! He understood well that you were coming soon.They got Mikias’ album out when they gave my boys theirs to take home and we looked at it together. He had a size 10 shoe on which fit perfectly but I would probably buy a 10 1/2 or 11 size shoe. He had a size 4 shirt on and a 4/5 pant which fit good. I gave him an outfit out from our donations so he would also feel special since the boys were changing into their new clothes. I got some great pics of Mikias, Samuel, and Abenezer together. I also got 2 pics of our 4 boys together. I gave W a BIG hug and kiss for you!! He seems somewhat shy but VERY sweet. Mikias did not seem that shy around us..he smiled and interacted a lot.
Even now, I tear up as I read her words. I have never met this woman in person and yet she demonstrated to me the beauty of the body of Christ in her service to my sons yesterday. In the midst of her own joyful celebration in being united with her sons, she made sure to also show great love to my boys and went out of her way to make Mikias feel special. On the day when our child was supposed to finally meet his mommy and daddy, instead of disappointment, God provided an extra-special day for our little boy. I’m still stunned at how well God knows my heart, knows the little things that I think my children need better than I do and how much better He is able to execute them than me! I would not trade the heartache we endured last week for the beauty of God’s glory I have seen over the last five days. To taste of His goodness and kindness in the midst of deep trials is a sweeter joy than I have ever known.