Kevin and his mom picked up Miles this morning (Ethiopia time) and today happens to be my 30th birthday! I texted with them throughout the night as I was up feeding Madden and poor Miles had a rough transition leaving the orphanage. I can’t imagine the fear and shock our little guy is going through right now, so please continue to pray that God would comfort him and ease his fears.
I’m hoping we can Skype them later today and I can see Kevin finally holding the last (at least for a while!) addition to our family. I just have to say again how thankful I am for so many of you who constantly lift us up in prayer…we praise God continually for your love for our family and your faithfulness to pray.
I debated whether or not to share this information, but my heart is full of so much anxiety and fear right now, that my need for prayer is greater than maintaining any type of image that we are rolling along smoothly. On Friday afternoon, I received a call from our pediatrician’s office that Madden’s newborn screen had come back with an abnormal reading. Basically, the screen tests for 38 diseases that can be better treated if caught early and Madden’s test for cystic fibrosis showed a higher than normal reading. The enzyme number for normal is 58 or below and Madden’s was 74. The nurse practioner told me that they typically aren’t alarmed unless the number is over 100, but we would still need to re-do his blood screen (which we had done today) and we would know the results in the next 7-10 days. Both parents have to be a carrier of the gene for cystic fibrosis in order for a child to inherit the disease and to our knowledge, Kevin and I aren’t carriers. But then I read that 10 million Americans are carriers of the silent gene and never know it.
Needless to say, its hard not to worry. Even though his chances of having the disease seem slim, I know that God could very well ordain this for our family and our sweet son and truthfully, I’m scared. Of course, it doesn’t help that my hormones are all wacky from delivery and my husband is out of the country! Nevertheless, I would really love for you to pray for me as we wait for the blood test to come back. Pray that I wouldn’t allow the possibility of this reality to steal joy from the sweet blessing God has given me in Madden and the blessing to come when Miles comes home. Pray that I would lean into the Lord in a deep, peace-filled, fearless trust that His will is perfect and good and loving. Pray that God would give me the strength to care well for my children during this next week…its been much harder having Kevin away than I had anticipated and I’m seeing just how much I depend on my husband for extra strength and assurance when the trials come. And most importantly, please pray that God would be pleased for Madden to live a life free of such a difficult sickness.
My awesome hubby headed out the door this morning for Ethiopia to finally bring Miles-Wubi home! Thankfully, Gramma is accompanying him…I kmow she’ll be a huge help to Kevin and they’ll enjoy this time together. As you think of us, please pray for sweet Miles…he’s been in the custody of our agency since 6 months old so this will be a major and I’m sure difficult transition for him. And always feel free to pray for me…God has been so faithful to me through your intercession!!
I just can’t help but brag on my little people. I can’t believe how well they’ve handled the transition to having a baby in the house. Of course Molly Kate is having a bit of hard time not getting so much of Mommy’s attention or lap time, but overall, their attitudes and dispositions have been so encouraging to witness. Molly Kate adores Madden and would be quite happy to sit and hold him all day. Every time she gets the opportunity to hold him, she sits absolutely still and just gazes at him. It then takes forever before she’s ready to get up or go play…she just wants to love on baby Madden. Mikias seems to have even crossed some more hurdles since Madden arrived…I think in part he enjoys just feeling like a normal part of our family. He’s no longer the “newbie” and I think he likes not being in the limelight anymore. I also think he feels like more a part of the family since he got to be on the welcoming end this time. He has been incredibly helpful around the house, picking up toys and throwing away dirty diapers…and does so with a willing and joyful spirit. He’s also begun requesting kisses from Kevin and I and wanting to give kisses in return…all you parents of adopted older children know that this is a HUGE deal! And I love that every time I turn around, he’s showering kisses on Madden.
Today I finally began to feel somewhat normal…my milk came in, so Madden slept beautifully last night and though broken up into small increments, I got a total of 6 hours of sleep! Amazing how renewed one can feel after several nights of no sleep! My aches and pains are also starting to lessen (praise for the Motrin prescription they give you!!). After lunch today, I sat with the kids at our kitchen table to do a little project and some pages in some pre-school workbooks we’re working through right now. They were so happy to finally have Mommy’s undivided attention and I also delighted in being able to focus on them. They had a million things to talk to me about and as I listened, my eyes just filled with tears as I thought about how deeply precious they are to me. Pregnancy was once again such a bear on my body and they have endured months of Mommy not being quite herself…which translates to a Mommy who is often tired, sick and low on energy. Yet through it all, by God’s sweet grace, they have bonded more to each other, grown in their obedience and remain amazingly resilient. Sure, we still have our share of ups and downs on any given day…but when I step back and look at the big picture, I can’t help but praise the Lord for the work He is doing in our family and especially in two little hearts. I can only continue to pray that He would use me to draw them to Christ.
And while I’m on this children soap box, let me just give praise to God for the sweet life He has given us in Madden Manley Cuthbertson. Most of you know Madden was a surprise…not because of any fertility issues on our end, but simply because we weren’t trying or planning to have another baby for several years. I could not be more delighted in this little man God has blessed us with and every time I look at him, I see in flesh God’s goodness and care for me. The reality is, had we waited to have another baby, I’m not sure I would have ever talked myself into enduring pregnancy again, especially with three children already in my care. But I also love and adore babies and everything about having a newborn and really wanted to have at least one more biological child. I’m so very thankful God saw fit to surprise us with Madden, to allow us the joy of seeing our genes come together now in a girl and a boy and that during the roughest parts of this pregnancy, I only had one child instead of three! While I know the timing seems nuts to everyone watching our journey, when I look at our lives through what God has promised to be true in His Word, I see clearly that He works all things out for my good and that His way is perfect. And even seeing our lives unfold these last few days…Molly Kate and Mikias’ attitudes, Madden’s good night of sleep when I desperately needed it, my ability to be patient with the children while my body recovers from childbirth…all of these things are God’s provision for us and they reassure me that He will give me everything I need to not only endure the days ahead, but to also do all of the good works He has prepared for me.
Just pics for now-there’s so much I want to share but can’t type and nurse my lil’ man!
Yesterday I left my OB office a little down…we set an induction date for Tuesday, which would mean get home Thursday and Kevin leave for ET Saturday. Certainly not the most ideal timing. But as my loving God would have it, I began having regular contractions this morning, labored at the movie theater and then home until about 5:30 and Madden Manley Cuthbertson arrived at 9:59 pm! He weighed 7 pounds 5 ounces and measured 20 inches long. He is an absolute doll and I’m so thankful to the Lord for His kindness in the timing. Kevin will get to enjoy the weekend with us without missing anymore work and we’ll have a week at home before he leaves for Ethiopia. Here’s a few pics…more to come tomorrow! Thank you to all have prayed fervently for our family…we are eternally grateful!